Lost

I wanted to plant trees-more trees but the outskirts of town keep on destroying my garden.
I have waited for a miracle to happen some kind of a paradise lost within the jungles.
I saw.  I am a believer...My quest is not done yet. I have more to plant the tree of my fruits of Eden.

WHEN ZOE CAME ACROSS LENNY HIMSELF AS SHE UNDERSTOOD WHAT SHE HAD
PREVIOUSLY SAID ONE TIME AGO IN A MAGAZINE MADE FOR TEENS ONLY THAT SHE HAD WANTED TO MOTHER KIDS FROM ALL ACROSS GENDERS AND NATIONALITIES SHE MEANT IT BUT LITTLE DOES SHE KNOWS NOW SHE STILL IS A KID HERSELF EVEN AFTER TEENAGE YEARS.  ADIEU LENNY KRAVITZ. I KNOW NOW WHY I SING THE SONGS YOU HAVE WRITTEN....


ZOE

MEXX

SEND RITA THIS MESSAGE:

I HAVE COME TO NOTICE THAT YOU ARE
OR WERE ABOUT TO LIBERATE OTHER
COUNTRIES WITH DANCE AND YOGA WEAR
THAT MIGHT BE TOO OBSCURE FOR SOME
VIEWERS TO SEE FOR THOSE SPECIALLY
THAT ARE OF OR FROM THE ULTRA CONSERVATIVE
ERA
PLEASE JUNIE IF YOU CAN HEAR ME  CHANGE YOUR WAYS
INTO MY VIEWS FOR A CHANGE
MAYBE YOU WILL SEE HOW I PRAY FOR YOU EACH DAY.


LOVE.

CONNIE

ANTICIPATING MICAH JACOB

it wasn't easy yet palpable

to carry him inside my every

bit of bosom 

i cherish every bit of the

ninth month

but still could not

wait until the

circumcision was finalized

at the royal alex

too many confusion 

up at the institution

itself

i love you dear micah

my aga.

nerni

ARCHANGEL MICHAEL.

WHEN MICHAEL APPEARED TO ME IN SILENCE AND IN THE COLOR OF ORANGE
I COULD NOT RECOGNIZE HIM AS HE WAS STILL A YOUNG BOY WHEN I FIRST
LISTENED TO HIS ENTIRE MUSIC GALA.

A FAN. I AM NOT.

FOR REALLY BIG MISTAKES ON JOSE'S FANATICISM ON ARCHANGEL MICHAEL AND CHRIS THAT BEGOTTEN ALL RESTAURANTS HAVE ME MYSELF BE NARCISSTIC OVER THE RESTAURANT BUSINESS.

DANCING USED TO BE PART OF THE AFTER DINNER DOWN AT OREST'S WAY BACK WHEN I WAS ONLY 13 YEARS OLD BUT WHO IS TO SAY THAT AN ARRESTED DEVELOPMENT WOULD ONLY BRING BACK ANOTHER WHOLE ARRAY OF MUSIC
I SO ENJOY NOW.

TANYA AND KIM HAVE BEEN THERE FOR THE MOST PART AND THEY HAVE NO REAL OVERT LIKING FOR THE SERVICE THEY HAVE GIVEN.  PARDON THE WAITRESSES AS THEY KNOW NOTHING MORE BUT TO SERVE THE FAVORED MEN IN JERSEYS.

REALITY STILL COMES BACK TO ME AS BEING IRONIC..
                                   

veronica andales banez

Avon s Trip to Singapore

Haven been back from Singapore over a few months back, I immediately thought of a plan to bring every Chinatown's imports or the products they already have in their very own shops.  I searched in Calgary in Canada for Buddhist shops to say my Thank you's as well as to ask permission to see whether their every bit Singapore outfits would fit into every thing I love about their Culture. For whatever red means is still not clear for me.  I think it stands for a Bride...  

Tahitian Doll School Performance

This is moi in the 70's..Kindergarten.  Location: Washington, DC.

Quadvision Photography.

 marbles that I collect...

Q

The Bicycle

Montel came by to see if Dad was home.

I have to tell you that when he is asleep he does not like to be

bothered especially right after nine in the evening.

But place the bicycle that was once belonged to Tyler there in

the back.

I have not forgotten the present.

I forgot to say Come In...

bye.

 

 

Veronica

Taken from: Seeing Emily by Joyce Lee Wong (p 132-133)

CONFIDING IN ALEX

When I went to work

on the mural the next day

Alex was already there.

He looked up from the painting

with a smile of greeting

then studied me for a moment

and asked, "Is something wrong?"

I found myself telling him

about the test

and he nodded sympathetically.

"No one wants to disappoint

their parents,"he said.

He thought for a moment, then said,

"You've done well

on the other math tests, haven't you?"

I nodded and he said,

"The semester's not over yet.

I think you can still make up for this one."

His smile was so kind

I found myself smiling back.

Just then, I noticed

what Alex was painting,

a group of ferns,

the fronds curling at the tips

like peacock feathers,

their thin-fingered leaves

ranging in the shade

from brilliant blue-green

to cool slate-gay,

te color of the sky just before

it releases a gentle spring rain.

"What do you think?" Alex asked.

"It's perfect," I said,

meaning it.

I picked up a brush

and when I started to paint

I felt something like calm

settling over me

like the mist that follows

a shower in May,

the wet air diffusing

the wam yellow sun

shining through.

Sometimes

on a day like this

if you're lucky enough,

you migt even see

a fragment of rainbow

spreading itself

across the sky.

Taken from: Seeing Emily by Joyce Lee Wong (p.73-74)

LONGING

Sitting in the geometry classroom
in the minutes before class started
on a Friday morning in October
I looked out the classroom window
to see a spattering of rain on the glass
and a gray haze cloaking the air.
I yawned,
chafing against
the closed, must feeling of the room.

A shriek and a chous of giggles
made me look up,
and through the classroom doorway
I saw a group of freshman girls rush by,
I was about to look away
when someone else came into view.

It was a boy who'd stopped
to talk to someone.
His back was to the doorway,
so I couldn't see his face,
but there was something familiar
about his blue jacket
and the way he stood easily,
with back straight
and his stance relaxed.

Just then,
he glanced into the classroom,
and I recognized
the new junior.
Nick.
Color rose to my face
and I wondered
if I should smile at him.

But the moment passed
as he glanced away,
then disappeared from view.
The room seemed suddenly to lighten
and I looked back at the window.
I saw the sun fighting
to break through the clouds,
and in the qucksilver light,
hovering
between brightness
and gray,
I felt an aching,
a powerful longing
for something
I couldn't name.

SPEAKING THE LANGUAGE

Uh-h, Uh-uh
Mmm-hmmm, Mmm-mmmm
Djeet? Yeah, djoo?
Mama told me how hard English was
for her to understand
when she first came to America.
The formal English
she'd learned from her textbooks
was so different from the way Americans spoke.
She'd learned yes and no.
Have you eaten your dinner yet?
and Yes, thank you. And yourself?
**********
But the words she heard instead
wee hard to grasp, slippery
as so many small fish
darting here and thee,
shining slips of color
with movements so quick,
impossible to catch.
Try as you might to follow one fish,
confusing your eye
so the first is lost
somewhere among
the whole, swirling group-
here for a moment
then swimming away
into the wide ocean
and gone.

Shi de, bu shi.
Ni chi le fan mei you? Wo chi le, ni ne?
I practice saying to myself,
Yes, no.
Have you eaten yet? Yes, how about you?

In my mind, the words slip easily,

casually from my tongue.

I hear the way

even the youngest children

unthinkingly toss out

these simple phrases,

the sounds and tones rolling lazily,

the unconscious music

of everyday Chinese

sung out through

the streets of Taipei.

Mama and Baba say

I used to speak beautiful Chinese,

my accent clear

and the ones perfect.

But then when I started kindergarten,

I remember how the other kids laughed

at the way I couldn't understand

any English at all.

Mama says it wasn't long

before I spoke English

exactly like my classmates.

But she said I reused

to speak Chinese anymore.

Even at home

with just Baba and Mama

and no one else to hear,

they spoke Chinese to me

and I answered them

in English.

**********

Now when I open my mouth

to speak Chinese

the words stumble out,

dissonant and harsh

as a series of misplayed notes.

Like a beginning musician

violating all rules

I go back and try to correct,

inevitably hitting

the same wrong notes again.

By then the easy rhythm,

the back-and forth flow

of conversation is gone,

irretrivably lost,

broken by me and my

tone-deaf, tuneless,

off-key imitation

of Chinese

I'm getting used to

the look on people's aces

when I try to speak with them.

Surprise, then confusion

turning to befuddlement

or plain curiosity

as they ask, Xiao Jie,

Ni shi na li ren?

Where are you from. Miss?

**********

Now I wonder:

How many times

must Mama have heard

this question,

Where are you from. dear?

And did they ever ask,

Are you Chi-nese, Japa-nese

or what?

Kung bakit di ko maamim sa iyo
Ang tunay na awitin nang loob ko
Hindi ko nais mabuhay pa kung wala sa feeling mo
Munit hindi ko pa rin maamim sa iyo
ung malaman ang sasabihin pag kaharapan
Munit nilingon naman pag dumaraan na
O ang laki'ng pagkakamali kung hindi nya namalalaman
Kaya sa awitin ko ngito pagdaraman.

La la la...

Sa awitin kong ito padaraman

At akong kumipas at limot na
At awiting kong alala pa
Awitin ang damdamim ko sayo maiiwanan
Sa pag pulong nang hangin
Sa pag bulong nang hangin

La la la...

Sa awitin kong ito padaraman

ON THE WAY HOME- by Joyce Lee Wong- Seeing Emily

Riding home on the bus

that aftenoon.

I couldn't stop

thinking about my test.

As much as I appreciated

my friends' efforts

to make me feel better,

I didn't know if

they truly understood.

And I didn't really know how to explain

to them or anyone else

why my grades matter

as much as they do

to Mama and Baba.

....." p 127

TESTS AND PARENTS- by Joyce Lee Wong- Seeing Emily

Our geometry tests came back

the week after Thanksgiving break.

Even as I sat with my friends at lunch

I could still see my grade:

a negative image

like a spot of harsh light

that lingers on the back of your lids

even when you close your eyes,

C.

Worse than the grade

was knowin

I could have done better

If I'd studied,

instead of spending so much time

with Nick

the weekend before the test.

"A C isn't bad, Emily." Nina said consolingly.

Liz rolled her eyes and said, "What is this,

the first C ever

in the history of Emily Wu?"

Unlike me, Liz had a natural talent

for math and science,

so I assumed she'd done well on the test.

I was sure of it when she said,

"Don't feel bad, Emily. It was a difficult proof."

I thought I heard a slightly victorious note

in her voice, but I was too caught up

in anticipating my parents' reaction to my grade

to give it much thought just then.

"Are you okay, Emily?"

Nina was looking at me with concern.

I forced a smile and said, "I'm fine.

I just don't think my parents

will be too happy about my test."

"At least they care enough

to be angry about your grades," Nina said quietly.

I looked at her, surprised.

"Your parents care about you."

"They do." Nina said. "But these days

they're more wrapped up in other things."

THE DRESS - by Joyce Lee Wong- Seeing Emily.

Saturday afternoon,

strolling through the mall

with Nick.

Everything seemed brighter,

the lights shiing

inside the stores,

and the thump of bass beats

from the music store,

the melted butter smell

from the theaters

mixed with the stink

of stale cigarettes smoke,

the heady drift of smoke

as we walked into

the department store.

I noticed girls

noticing Nick,

watched them look

from him to me

and felt their envy, palpable

as the static electricity bursts

made by our shoes

scuffing against carpeted floor.

I walked taller, savoring

the weight

of his arm

around my shoulders,

the tingle of my skin

where his hand

brushed my arm.

When I caught a glimpse

of our reflection in a mirror,

I almost believed

the girl

beside Nick

could be pretty

since he'd chosen her.

He leaned down to point something out

and I smelled, faintly

the sweetness

of shampoo

ad the scent

of his skin,

"Look," he said,

his breath warm

on my cheek.

It was a mannequin

clothed in a dress

bright with a tropical print,

the fabric cut low

to show stiff, white curves

of fake breasts,

the sarong skirt

falling open

to bare a slim,

plastic thigh.

"You'd look fantastic,"

Nick said, "wearing that."

Something about the dress

bothered me, but I couldn't

quite say what it was.

"I'm not sure it's my style," I said.

"You'd look exotic, Hawaiian

or Polynesian. Just try it on."

WhenI hesitated

he put his mouth

to my ear

and whispered, "Please."

He reached out

and touched the fabric

of the dress

as gently.

I shivered.

"Okay,"

I lifted

the dress from the rack

and walked to the fitting room.

aware all the while

of his hand, warm

on the small of my back,

as we walked.

Taken from: Seeing Emily by Joyce Lee Wong
*Don't go into the restaurant business.
Baba says, the hours are long
the work is ku, bitter.
and the better business is,
the harder you work.

Baba thought our restaurant
would do well in this neighborhood.
Business isn't bad,
but it's hard to find a chef around here
who knows wok cooking.
So Baba, Mama, and I often cook.

The kitchen's always hotter
than an August afternoon.
Oil crackles and spits
when you drop chopped
vegetables and meat
into the waiting wok.
over the sizzling din,
the sharp scrape of metal on metal
as you stir-fry slabs of chicken or beef,
then chunks of tofu, slices of bamboo,
pea pods and water chestnuts,
always keeping the pieces moving
over the rippling, flaming heat.

with the oil in the wok
at 375 degrees for deep-frying,
you try to be careful,
but sometimes on a busy weekend night,
when the roar of the customers' conversation
follows you into the kitchen,
and your feet start to tire
and your back and arms complain
but the orders keep coming fast,
hot oil can leap up, lightning-quick toward you,
spattering your clothing or skin;
we've all ben burned in the kitchen.*

I don't know would you consider this the hiherarchy of Pegabo and the Aldo Group itself- Dolce & Gabbana? Maybe...possibly.

However unartistic you think you are, you can make a work of art for your wall and you can een make sure it's the right size and in complementary colours for your room! Taking a piece of MDF and keeping to a simple, repetitive design, you can, with a little time and patience, create a wall decoration at very little cost. There are so many designs to choose from, you are certain to find one to suit your room. - Geometric Wall- Board p. 62- Off the Wall by Judy Smith- lean to : 25 inspirational ideas for vertical surfaces....